Let Me Introduce Myself

     OK, so here I am, finally setting up my first blog spot. I have so much to say, but the words are all twisted up inside my head at the moment. Oh well, they will come out in time. I guess first and foremost is why I started this blog. To be honest, there are a few reasons why. One is so that I have writing samples to add to my resume. Another is that I simply love to gab. I always have an opinion about something and am usually not afraid to voice it. Certainly, there are times when it gets me into trouble, but hey… Live and learn right? And lastly, I decided this would also serve as a therapeutic outlet, as I am at a point in my life where I am feeling a bit lost... What better way to work through this than to write my feelings down. And hey... it's a lot cheaper than paying a shrink to listen to me think out loud... LOL
     Now back to me and my confusion about life at the present time… I am at a crossroads in my life at the present time. My children are grown and living their own lives. I recently moved back home to help out my mom (Although at times it feels more as if she is the one helping me); and I am between jobs and unsure where I want to go moving forward. Thus I find myself wondering about who I am and what am I supposed to be doing.
     I divorced seven years ago and moved to a new city as a result. Out of necessity I found myself working long hours to support my two younger sons on my own. However, I quickly fell in love with my job and I found a new path to follow. I wanted to move up within the company and get into quality and training. I had a new dream. I wanted to make a difference. For the first time in my life, I think I really knew what I wanted to do, and I loved where I worked. I then decided to return to school and get my BSBA in Business as a tool to help me obtain my goal. I dove into my coursework and my hard work paid off with me graduating Summa Cum Laude with a 3.96GPA. Unfortunately, the company I worked for chose to close our doors just a few months after I graduated. So here I am, a 43 year old single mom, up to my eyeballs in college debt and no job. So, what do I do? What else can I do? I keep trudging along.
     I find another job, in a completely different industry, and I muddle through a year and a half in a job which made me miserable more often than not, until I finally part ways with my egomaniacal boss. I am fortunate to have a very supportive family who helped hold me together when I found myself once again middle aged and unemployed. This time was different however... I found myself not as eager to jump right back into survival mode and take the first job I could find regardless of the fit. I found myself wondering about whom I was and where I was going...
    I am certain there are lots of people out there have found themselves in similar situations. Many of them are not willing or able to admit they find they can relate to my story. My story is nothing special, but it is mine and my hope is that by sharing maybe I can help someone else along the way as well as helping myself.... For now however, I am off to ponder more of life’s questions that are in my head. I will be back to share some more at a later time. Take care.